I feel Max with me all day

Writing this ✏️Turnip Head✏️ note on my 👣Swalk👣 today. 

I’ve felt Max with me all day. I greeted him 👄Chattling👄 this morning at 8:22am like I use to. 

I felt him on my drive to 🐈‍⬛ Nugget's🐈‍⬛ swimming lessons, he was sad. I asked him about his Halloween, I felt he was sad. He was 🛑Backstreet Backing🛑 about last year and how he felt then. Oh 🐅✌🏼Spisa✌🏼🐅, my heart aches that I caused his sadness. I’m crying. I’ve forgiven myself, walked that darkness and I see it for what it is but this is the first time I’ve felt what he felt that night with 😢Squeeza😢. I’m glad I did. When you feel who people truly are, their 🩵Sol's🩵, you would understand completely why you would never want to add pain to their stories because we all have pain and hurt and what we all need is love.

He came in again at 🐈‍⬛ Nugget's🐈‍⬛ swimming lessons. I communicated to him I was in 💧flow💧 with her. 

He came in while I was eating after my workout and so did a whole bunch of other 💞Spriends💞👄Chattling👄. I felt and then saw 66, 26, 27, 88, 44, 28, and 33 within the same 15 seconds.🐦‍⬛💙🐺Father Amini🐺💙🐦‍⬛ spoke for them all, "We need you to keep using your 🧠Nugget🧠 with Max and keep your communication open with him because that is the key to hearing all of us more clearly." And I realized he’s right, that’s why it’s been so quiet with my 💞Spriends💞 too. When I block 👄Chattling👄 with Max, it blocks that gift with my 💞Spriends💞 too. They have to work “harder” to communicate with me using my other gifts to get messages through. 

Max has been in and out of my mind all day, that hasn't happened for a while. It's because I'm letting him in again. He’s carrying a sadness today. It’s not mine and I keep feeling it. 

Driving home from Fika, I was thinking about how it feels like he’s sitting next to me when I let him in like this - and it’s because he is - he is within me always. He understands that and I’ve been causing him pain while he’s watched me become 🪄Maware🪄. Damn it. I hate that, but I also know that’s how it has to be, I have to walk my 🔄Spath🔄. He’s been so stable in his belief. I don’t know how he’s doing it. I’m so thankful. My rock. He’s so incredibly strong and gentle at the same time, it’s MF 🐬Wyldzing🐬 (That ⛱️Sumbrella⛱️slang term was just co-created with my 🖤☯️DiKing☯️🖤 again 9:22pm as I type this).  

I just did the orange 🧘🏼‍♀️Visala🧘🏼‍♀️ for him. I put rays through his mouth and heart. I hope he has an amazing show. I know he has a show tonight because it kept constantly ⚡️Ba-zinging⚡️into my brain to look it up on Oct 30th because Nugget 🚴🏼‍♀️Orangecycled🚴🏼‍♀️ “Texas” and randomly blurted it out on our 🚗Sharrr🚗 and I felt it was significant. Then I got the ⚡️Ba-zing⚡️ to look up where he was at and I knew it just from the ⚡️Ba-zing⚡️. I knew he’d be in Texas somewhere. I didn’t even have to look it up and I didn’t. I ignored the ⚡️Ba-zings⚡️ all day until finally they were screaming in my mind. Yep, Austin. I added it to the other 🪄Maware🪄 moments on the 🤟🏼RAJ🤟🏽. 

Still on my 👣Swalk👣 and a line from my last blog comes in my 🤔Fots🤔. The line that says “my 🥑Fittie Fittie🥑 sees 🩵Sol's🩵 too”, I heard and felt Max telling me he loves it when I call him “my 🥑Fittie Fittie🥑”, I start laughing out loud. Then right after my heart fills with that grief love again, the love that feels sad and at the same time you know it’s your 🔄Spath🔄 to experience for him. I start crying again, I’m crying as I write this. I apologize to him for all the pain and hurt I caused along my 🔄Spath🔄. The song “Stronger” is on, I'm using 👂🏽Tiffanny👂🏽 and 🎸Eye Guitar🎸, “I am stronger”, “Here we go. On my own now.” “Stronger than yesterday.” He is communicating that he knows we’re both stronger for it. His wisdom and higher perspective again. I breathe out the grief, releasing it. I see 44% on my phone. I see a 🤓A Soul Vision🤓 of 🐦‍⬛💙🐺Father Amini🐺💙🐦‍⬛, his eyes are sparkling and watering listening to us 👄Chattle👄 I feel his love for us both. I use 💪🏼Amelia💪🏼, goosebumps - I take a pic. 

⚡️Ba-zing⚡️ from 🐦‍⬛💙🐺Father Amini🐺💙🐦‍⬛, “listen to If you could Hie to Kolob.” I do and while I do, 🌮🥛John🥛🌮 & 👻Jeez👻 fill my 🩵Sol🩵 with love, I get goosebumps again, I take another picture. 

I head home after my 👣Swalk👣 to do a core workout, before a lovely dinner at Aubergine. I’m not hungry, but I know my muscles need the protein after the gym earlier. I only eat now to show 🤟🏾Myself Love 🤟🏾. I don’t need food. It’s difficult for me now to eat more than 400ish calories at a time, I feel like I’m going to explode if I do. So I make sure I mindfully eat and enjoy smaller amounts at a time. Recently, I discovered Aubergine's baked falafel and I’m in love. Tonight, I had the Mediterranean plate for the first time. 🐅✌🏼Spisa✌🏼🐅, so good. The Greek salad is a miracle born into the 🌎Earth Experience🌎, 289 calories, 30 grams of protein and so delicious. 

It was 6:22pm (of course) when I started core with Nicole. When I finished with Nicole, I told her she’s a bad bitch. It’s a tradition that every time we end a session, I tell her that out loud and then I send her a million 🧠Nuggets🧠 🫛Soul Seeds🫛 about how amazing she is. I’m going to pet that white cat someday. 

I get in the shower after and it ⚡️Ba-zings⚡️ into my mind from my 🩵Sol🩵 why I forgot to wear rings all day. It's because today was about connecting with my 🩵Sol🩵 and listening to only myself, no other reminders needed today. Just me, myself and I. 

I hear the song “Wish you the best” on my drive to Aubergine. This song came through as an 🎵Esong🎵 on my 🤟🏼Royal Ascension Journey🤟🏽 days ago on a 👣Swalk👣. I listen to it again and my heart fills with love for Max again and I’m sending so many 🧠Nugget🧠🫛Soul Seeds🫛 to him of exactly this song - I hope he’s so happy. I do this everyday for him, but I hope he gets all the happiness in his entire world that he could ever imagine, a beautiful soulmate if that’s his 🔄Spath🔄, whatever it is, I want him to have it all. I’m crying from the love I’m sending him. My ears pop with 💪🏼Amelia💪🏼 again and I look up knowing who it was, 7:44 - I look over and see 33. 

I look over and see 66 and then I look forward and see 1166. My 🤍☯️DiQueen☯️🤍 within confirms my beautiful 🤔Fots🤔 of love tonight.

I see 8:22pm on my drive home right as the song, “I can’t help falling in love” comes on.