🐈‍⬛Nugget🐈‍⬛ 💞Spriendship💞

✏️Turnip Head✏️ Note written on Halloween 2025.

So many cute moments with 🐈‍⬛ Nugget🐈‍⬛ tonight. 

First, we were sitting on the sofa after trick or treating and we started talking about Halloween last year and laughing about how I I let her eat as many Reese’s cups as she could at story time right before bed (from my leftover trick or treaters candy) and I was shocked that she ate five in a row. We were laughing so hard and I said, “you said you were never going to eat another Reese’s cup again and you still eat them.” 

Then, she wanted to know what I did for my Halloween last year when I missed my first Halloween with her. I didn’t tell her this (because my emotions are not her responsibility), but that was incredibly sad for me. It's always heartbreaking to lose making those memories with her in 🌎Earth Experience🌎 when I waited so long for her to come here & I grieved so much. Last Halloween, I cried a lot in the bathtub that night (I’m crying now thinking about it). But I see it’s our path. It felt like a significant moment where I needed to open up to her, be honest and share some of my darkness with her. It's important to me that she knows I have 🧬Twist Tingles🧬 all the time that I need to learn from too. I told her about how I didn’t show up to see Max a year ago when he invited me and I told him I would. I have not told her that yet. She looked confused and she said, “but you told him you would go.” She knows I always keep my word/promises so I could feel why this was confusing to her to learn this about me.

She asked me why I didn't go and I told her it was because I fell in love with him as soon as I looked into his eyes & it scared me. She said, “Why is that scary mommy?” When she asked that so simply it made me think about it differently than I could before and that’s how I know I’ve healed my brain. She’s right, that’s not scary at all, that’s wonderful. And it is wonderful & I'm so thankful I experienced it. I told her, "Mommy was scared of boys because so many boys had hurt me before so I had to heal my brain to know that boys are safe and to learn how to recognize safe ones and ones that aren't, but I’m okay now. I've healed myself." She said “Oh mommy, I’m sorry” and I felt it in her heart (with 😢Squeeza😢) she understood completely. It’s so simple for children. They are so wise. I felt so understood. It was so sweet. It also 💧flowed💧 out of my mouth at the same time that I was in love with Max still but I explained to her that doesn’t mean I would be with him in this life - I could be with another man I fall in love with or no one and 🐅✌🏼Spisa✌🏼🐅 (and 🐕‍🦺✌🏼Smax✌🏼🐕‍🦺) will take care of it all. 

I am in love with him. That's how it's been and how it always will be, "there is no end to love." (A quote from 🌮🥛John🥛🌮's favorite hymn, If You Could Hie to Kolob). There was a moment on my 🔄Spath🔄 (that ⛱️Sumbrella⛱️ term was just created in💧flow💧while editing this blog, I looked up and saw 12:22 - my 🖤☯️DiKing☯️🖤 co-creates with me again), where I felt like I wasn’t in love with him because it was helping me open my heart to other possibilities, let go, be in my 💧flow💧, and become 🌎🩵Sarth🩵🌎. I believe I can be in love with him and still have an open heart to other kings if that’s my 🔄Spath🔄. It has to be that way because he's my 🖤☯️DiKing☯️🖤 within me always. Also, it helped me to fall completely into my 💧flow💧 and trust myself. I’m not focused on “kings” or love outside myself because I know I have everything I need within me. I’m focused on myself, 🐈‍⬛ Nugget🐈‍⬛, and ⛱️Sumbrella⛱️. 

She wanted to see the ⛱️Sumbrella⛱️ website. When I showed her the 🌙Moon Book🌙 of my 💞Spriends💞, we looked through all of them and when I got to 🍞✌🏼Mother Teresa✌🏼🍞, she said, “Oh she’s beautiful”. She had already seen 🎤💓Whitney Houston💓🎤 and 👼🏼✌🏼Mother Diana's ✌🏼👼🏼 photos, but she paused to comment on 🍞✌🏼Mother Teresa's✌🏼🍞 beauty (I’m getting goosebumps as I write this and I see 88 to confirm, 🍞✌🏼Mother Teresa✌🏼🍞 is 👄Chattling👄 with me right now while I'm working out at the pulley machine at the gym, she is telling me that my little 🐈‍⬛ Nugget🐈‍⬛ is incredibly special and beautiful herself.) This is how you know children see 🩵Sol's🩵 and not physical beauty, isn’t that lovely? My 🥑Fittie Fittie🥑 is the same way, he sees 🩵Sol's🩵. My eyes are 💧flowed💧 up to see 22 as I write that to confirm.

Then I showed her the first 🔵Circle of Unity🔵 video and talked to her about using our ☔️Purple Power☔️ and loving ourselves no matter what we see on the video. We laughed SO hard we couldn’t breathe at the video, she understood how funny it was. I loved it. She said, “I always want to be me.” And she said, "Again! Again!" My favorite part is her face when I say, "Where do our 🩵Sol's🩵come from then?" And she's using her 🧠Nugget🧠gift and repeating words with me. We had a lot of favorite parts, but we laughed SO hard at when she was repeating & blurting out one random word during the 💄Professor McOreo💄 ring fit-check. I have randomly burst out laughing since that video for days and days when it🛑Backstreet Backs🛑 into my mind.

After the video, she looked at me and said, “Mommy, I’m having so much fun with you snuggling on the couch talking. I love it” 

My heart was pulsing out pink unconditional love energy all around us in the living room. I cuddled her into me as close as I could. I love my miracle so much. 

Also, when I was getting my pjs on she came in my bathroom and I said to her, "I’ll be into your room in a minute to read books" and she said “but I just want to be with you.” 🥹🥰 I’m the luckiest person that’s ever lived. 

At bedtime, I was laying in bed with her before she fell asleep and she said, “Mommy, I’m so glad you’re my Mommy.” I told her that back and told her I love her more than anything in the world and she said that to me too and then I took a 💤Snap 💤 with her in my arms as she fell asleep. I create heaven for myself everyday. My miracle 🏡Visiting Home🏡 in my arms is heaven in the 🌎Earth Experience🌎.

When I woke up, my heart was so soft from the love filling it, hot tears in my eyes from the 🐎Wonderment🐎 I've created. 🐅✌🏼Spisa✌🏼🐅, my life is so beautiful. 

These simple beautiful moments are the magic. 

To find the definitions of the ⛱️Sumbrella⛱️  Language used here, please visit

https://www.mysumbrella.com/sumbrella-language